tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17040669321380966042024-02-08T04:51:57.659-06:00Echoes of an unknown futurelooking to start the journey on becoming a single mommy.smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.comBlogger16125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-72920364740224058042010-01-30T15:49:00.004-06:002010-01-30T16:43:02.746-06:00That flash of life before your eyes.Friday night was going to be the best. My friend from work wanted to head out to his favorite bar and said your coming with me. He is a blast to be around and had fun getting ready to go.We stayed till close and of course, being a guy while intoxicated was trying to start fights with other guys for just looking at him the wrong way. I dragged him out and we both decided that we should head out tosmolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-43530986200858834382010-01-25T22:45:00.004-06:002010-01-25T23:03:17.546-06:00shaken and stirred...I talk to her through facebook, and that's all. She says that she loves me, but i really don't know anymore. I am talking about my mom. There was (well its still hitting us) a blizzard. I went online to check out my facebook before i ventured out in the cold and blowing snow to go to work. She was online and just asked her if my dad went to work (they live in the country). she said no, everyone smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-70468633793522252022010-01-20T09:59:00.007-06:002010-01-20T10:16:49.215-06:00The air is getting lighterSlowly but surely i have started to tell certain people who are dear to me on what i want to do.I live with my cousin. She was living with my sister and myself before the big blow up and we decided to move in together. I have been close with her all of my life and i fell that she is more than my cousin but a sister as well. That is why I think i was real hesitant on telling her my plans on smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-16443340471586703172010-01-10T10:45:00.003-06:002010-01-10T11:00:04.732-06:00natural highIts been a week, let me tell you. I think the weather is just taking so much out of me lately.. just don't feel too motivated to do much. Yesterday i went out and actually bought a vacuum... yes since myself and my cousin moved here... we were a little vacuumness(been borrowing our friends). So yesterday and this morning all i have been doing is clean, clean, clean.Maybe all of this cleaning has smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-77198288870371711392009-12-27T23:28:00.002-06:002009-12-27T23:51:54.763-06:00Choosing my own pathI am happy that the holidays are now over. Yule was the best, celebrating with my best friends and two of my cousins. We all had a blast.Christmas was a whole different kettle of fish. I was actually told by my mother not to show up to the house on Christmas day because of my sister. My parents had my fathers side of the family over on Christmas eve. I was there of course, I wanted to see smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-71763358307292244032009-12-11T20:04:00.004-06:002009-12-11T20:18:40.006-06:00Yule came early todaywell today was looking like a normal day. Ok not too normal. i picked up my mom to do a little yule shopping, and on the way to the city the rear passenger tire blew up. it was a bit scary but i was able to pull my car over to the side of the road with little to no problem. The only big problem was it was -27 plus the windchill factor so it must have been -5000 out. and there i am with no gloves,smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-25322288984413201452009-12-03T17:20:00.002-06:002009-12-03T17:24:13.114-06:00The best medicineToday I was really depressed thanks to my mom calling me and telling me that I had to buy my sister a christmas present because otherwise she would be depressed. after that and her trying to tell me how to live my life i was felling really down. The people i work with heard my argument with my mom on the phone so they were trying to cheer me up today.All it took to put a smile on my face was the smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-25585791573248966652009-11-29T20:09:00.003-06:002009-11-29T20:28:03.911-06:00Don't know...Well its about that time of the year where everyone goes and celebrates yule/Christmas with their family. I don't know what I'm going to do this year though. my life has not been too clear for a while now.since my birthday in April, i had what would you call it had a fallout with my family. my sister had a blow up with me and she threatened to kill me. My parents had taken my sisters side in smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-82025553899629300222009-10-31T23:34:00.005-05:002009-11-01T04:59:05.074-06:00the late night bloggerWell Samhain was the best. it is my favorite holiday of them all it always has been. being out with my friends, sharing a meal with them and the ones that have passed on was very peaceful, cold but nice.I Am blogging so late at night because lucky me i get to work the overnight shift. i already worked from 7am to 11am. I then celebrated Samhain with my best friends. Now I'm working 11pm to 7am. smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-74680592005853007932009-10-23T19:58:00.002-05:002009-10-23T20:33:33.101-05:00Yay for fridayWell I must say that today went off without a hitch. It was a most fantastic Friday. He was napping when i got there. As soon as he woke up he got his bottle and lunch then we were off hehe. Our first stop was to my work so i can pick up my check. I walk in there with sky and all the girls i work with are "OHHH he's so CUTE!!" even the one guy i cook with all the time was all google eyed over thesmolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-24479839421853807772009-10-22T20:10:00.004-05:002009-10-22T22:15:37.125-05:00The true testWell tomorrow i will have the true test. It will be Sky and myself all day alone tomorrow. All day with the little one, having to remember the schedule that he is on, what to feed him, when to put him for a nap, bottles...I know though its going to be more tough on mommy and daddy because they have never been away from him for so long. And truth be told, i have never been around a little one for smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-87075155591840591732009-10-14T15:37:00.002-05:002009-10-14T15:48:25.551-05:00From the end to the beginningThings are starting to get better now. I have been sleeping a bit better now since last Saturday. if it was not for my friends looking out for me, I would probably be more of a wreck then i am now. I don't know why it bothers me so much. I don't think the other people that I work with are affected by it like I was. I just take a deep breath and continue on with my day.Also i think it helps that ismolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-79430371436569061622009-10-10T20:56:00.003-05:002009-10-10T21:25:44.762-05:00Mind numbingEver have those days when you know that you should have just stayed in bed? well today was one of those days. It is only October 10Th, and there is a lot of snow on the ground now. i woke up and looked outside my apartment just to see my car covered. that should have been the indicator to climb back into my bed. so instead of driving to work, i just walked there. i don't live that far from my jobsmolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-41514043978370196872009-10-07T21:07:00.002-05:002009-10-07T21:22:39.297-05:00I'm sure there are some out there...so today i am looking and looking online for other blogs about people like me. someone who wants a baby and is single. there are a lot of blogs about single parents, that have been in a relationship but are now doing it on their own, but not too many about someone who wants to do it alone from the get go.i guess i have to do some more searching, because it will be interesting to read about other smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-44302212862634597272009-10-06T07:00:00.004-05:002009-10-06T07:25:38.588-05:00Your not House...I went to the doctors yesterday. I wanted to talk to him about my plans about becoming a mom. So i made a appointment for a physical (i never had one before so i figured it was high time to) so i can get my foot in the door to ask him some questions.The place i want to go to get the (TDI) makes you have a referral from a doctor so i figured i'll just ask mine. I have been seeing the same doctor smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1704066932138096604.post-37492842949068196172009-10-05T21:12:00.000-05:002009-10-05T21:25:06.374-05:00new beginningsThere is a time in your life that you stop and ask yourself, what do i really want to come from it all. what kind if impression do i want to leave when i am gone?i have been doing a lot of soul searching lately and i have come up with an conclusion. i do want more out of life. i want to share what i know with someone. i want a part of me to live on. i really want a baby.there is a little problem smolderhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/01365858223374232725noreply@blogger.com2